Emilie Chises defends her choice not to publicly discuss the death of her 3-year-old son, Trigg, which occurred earlier this year.
The influencer, 26, shared her feelings via TikTok on Monday, October 13, speaking in-depth about Trigg’s loss for the first time since his drowning in May.
Kiser told his followers that “unless you’ve lost someone and gone through grief, you won’t understand what you would do or how you would act. Because you’ve just never had to be in this position, and I hope you never have to be.”
With tears in her eyes, she continued, “I mean, everyone loses someone or something at some point in their life, but losing a child is literally the worst pain. And I wouldn’t want anyone to go through that.”
Kiser said she is hurt by critics who think she didn’t grieve properly or talk about the tragedy enough.
“For people to say, ‘If it was me, I would just be paralyzed and I would think about them all day and I wouldn’t be able to go on,’ don’t you think that everywhere I look in my house I don’t see my child?” she said. “His photos are everywhere. His artwork is everywhere. … I love it because he’s my child and I never want to forget him. But I don’t show that on camera. I don’t show you all these things.”
She explained that she doesn’t “share my kids anymore, so I don’t share Teddy and I don’t share Trigg. I do my best and I share a very small part because I’m not ready to share other things. I’m not ready to talk about other things. And that’s okay. These are the things I discover in my therapy sessions, with the professionals and with my family.” (She and her husband Brady Kisser also share their son Teddy, born in March.)
Kiser added: “And these are not things that I think I should find out on the Internet and unpack with millions of people. »
Although she feels “ready to return to work with some sense of normalcy, I’m not ready to talk about what happened to him,” she said, adding through tears: “I’m very busy with the loss of my son.” »
Kiser added that people have “the right to say whatever they want about my grief journey,” but reminded them that they “don’t see the full scope of things. I share the moments that I can bear to film and that I want to film, because it kind of helps me step out of my reality for a second and do my job, which I really enjoy. I really love creating content. That’s why I do it.”
The Chandler, Arizona Police Department confirmed Us every week in May, Trigg died after being pulled unconscious from the family’s backyard swimming pool. In July, authorities submitted a recommendation for criminal charges for Trigg’s father, Brady, who was home when the incident occurred. A statement shared by the Maricopa County Attorney’s Office later said there was “no likelihood of conviction.”
After taking a break from social media following Trigg’s death, Kiser broke his silence in August.
“A loss of this magnitude seems impossible to express in words,” she wrote at the time via Instagram. “I spent days, weeks, months trying to find them and I also took the time I needed to process the loss of my baby.”
